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Monday 30 April 2012

It is a poor idea to lie to yourself



Lying to self is to convince yourself that something is true whereas you know what the truth is. Lying to yourself is easy, but not a good thing to do, that I know for a fact.  It leaves you with guilty and when you lie there is always that inner voice that keeps on whispering "that it’s not the truth".  As in lying to others, lying to yourself is not advisable. It can be damaging to the well being of your consciousness. When lying to yourself there is always that constant reminder, the second voice speaking softly in you saying “you know that is not true”.

Lying to yourself can lead to such a dramatic outcome, because when the truth kicks in and you have to admit the “ugly truth” to yourself, it can be quite an emotional episode. I remember when I was still in High school there was a misunderstanding between my best friend and I. I told myself I don’t need her in my life and that life goes on. Little did I know that I was lying to myself. So we did not talk to each other for about a year and when I got to Cape Town at UWC, we bumped to each other and she was so helpful she even got me a place to stay in one of the school residences. I felt so bad because she was going all the way out for me whereas I was the one who wrote her off in my life and ignored her correspondences. Her kindness and level of maturity really got to me and I felt so bad, that did not treated me well. I felt so guilt until I was true to myself, came to my senses and admitted the truth that I was wrong,  I admitted my mistakes and eventually apologized to her and that is when I  had peace with myself. I was then free to be myself again because I was not pretending, I realized that lying to yourself is just not a good thing to do.