Lying to self is to convince yourself
that something is true whereas you know what the truth is. Lying to yourself is
easy, but not a good thing to do, that I know for a fact. It leaves you
with guilty and when you lie there is always that inner voice that
keeps on whispering "that it’s not the truth". As in lying
to others, lying to yourself is not advisable. It can
be damaging to the well being of your consciousness. When lying to yourself
there is always that constant reminder, the second voice speaking softly in you
saying “you know that is not true”.
Lying to yourself can lead to such a
dramatic outcome, because when the truth kicks in and you have to admit
the “ugly truth” to yourself, it can be quite an emotional episode. I remember
when I was still in High school there was a misunderstanding between my best
friend and I. I told myself I don’t need her in my life and that life goes on. Little
did I know that I was lying to myself. So we did not talk to each other for
about a year and when I got to Cape Town at UWC, we bumped to each other and
she was so helpful she even got me a place to stay in one of the school
residences. I felt so bad because she was going all the way out for me whereas
I was the one who wrote her off in my life and ignored her correspondences. Her
kindness and level of maturity really got to me and I felt so bad, that did not
treated me well. I felt so guilt until I was true to myself, came to my senses
and admitted the truth that I was wrong, I admitted my mistakes and eventually apologized
to her and that is when I had peace with
myself. I was then free to be myself again because I was not pretending, I realized
that lying to yourself is just not a good thing to do.
